Hello all. I am sorry for my sudden and abrupt disappearance. I had a lot going on in the last few weeks and to be honest, I fell off the weight loss wagon, gained more weight and basically just let it all go. I am back now. I went on vacation (again) to see my family in NJ about ten days after I got back from AZ. While I was there I just lost it. I was eating everything I could get my hands on. I mean it was just undescribable. I even ate muffin mix. I just put it in a bowl, poured in the milk and ate it. I probably gained 20, maybe 30 pounds. I couldn't even tell you how much I weigh now because my bathroom scale is supposed to only go up to 350. At last count, or at least when I started this blog, I weighed 357 and I got that weight from my scale. The last time I stepped on it, it just went E as in error, as in "Lady, the error is that you have gotten too fat, and I am tired of telling it to you." So, what brought me back you say? Well, really, a conversation that I had with my husband. He was acting strange, kind of like he was upset with me, and I couldn't for the life of me figure out why. We went to bed saturday night and, I am telling you the truth, I was afraid to go to sleep. I was so scared that my heart was going to stop and I was going to die that I was afraid to go to sleep. So I told my husband and he told me that it is true. He said that he is frustrated with this problem and that he is concerned about my health and that he was reading 1 Corinthians 3:16, 17 and, to paraphrase, it says that you are the temple of God and that if you defile that temple, God will destroy it. He said that he had been praying for me that God would open my eyes and give me the desire to overcome this battle that I have been struggling with all my life. I began to think of my kids. How I had heard this story of a two-year-old girl who called 911 because her mother had some sort of heart problem and passed out and how the mom was overweight. I thought of my babies and how they would be too little to do anything if something happened to me. I thought of the video clip that a friend who also struggles with her weight showed me and how little this lady did to get her weight off just staying persistent. And I decided to come back. Pick this thing up and come back.