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Monday, October 1, 2007

Sorry for the hiatus

Hello all. I am sorry for my sudden and abrupt disappearance. I had a lot going on in the last few weeks and to be honest, I fell off the weight loss wagon, gained more weight and basically just let it all go. I am back now. I went on vacation (again) to see my family in NJ about ten days after I got back from AZ. While I was there I just lost it. I was eating everything I could get my hands on. I mean it was just undescribable. I even ate muffin mix. I just put it in a bowl, poured in the milk and ate it. I probably gained 20, maybe 30 pounds. I couldn't even tell you how much I weigh now because my bathroom scale is supposed to only go up to 350. At last count, or at least when I started this blog, I weighed 357 and I got that weight from my scale. The last time I stepped on it, it just went E as in error, as in "Lady, the error is that you have gotten too fat, and I am tired of telling it to you." So, what brought me back you say? Well, really, a conversation that I had with my husband. He was acting strange, kind of like he was upset with me, and I couldn't for the life of me figure out why. We went to bed saturday night and, I am telling you the truth, I was afraid to go to sleep. I was so scared that my heart was going to stop and I was going to die that I was afraid to go to sleep. So I told my husband and he told me that it is true. He said that he is frustrated with this problem and that he is concerned about my health and that he was reading 1 Corinthians 3:16, 17 and, to paraphrase, it says that you are the temple of God and that if you defile that temple, God will destroy it. He said that he had been praying for me that God would open my eyes and give me the desire to overcome this battle that I have been struggling with all my life. I began to think of my kids. How I had heard this story of a two-year-old girl who called 911 because her mother had some sort of heart problem and passed out and how the mom was overweight. I thought of my babies and how they would be too little to do anything if something happened to me. I thought of the video clip that a friend who also struggles with her weight showed me and how little this lady did to get her weight off just staying persistent. And I decided to come back. Pick this thing up and come back.


MilitaryMom said...

I know you don't know me, but I wanted to tell you that I am so proud of you. I have read your previous posts, and I want to offer you some support. I am a military woman myself (AF) and I understand the pain of feeling you are not worthy. Believe me when I say you are beautiful, and I would love to get to know you.
Cyndi (MilitaryMom)

Weight Watching Princess said...

Welcome back! I was reading over diary and I'm glad I found it. I linked you on my page, hope you don't mind! I look forward to watching your continued progress!

Chubby Chick said...

Awww... I am SO glad you are back, girl! I know it's not easy to lose weight... but it is SO worth it! And you are not alone!

I checked out that video, and it is amazing! That woman looks great! What an inspiration! I hope you don't mind, but I'm going to post that on my blog, too... along with a link back to your blog. It is just too good to keep a secret! We all need to view that! Thanks for sharing it!

Lady T said...

and the crowd roars!!!!

we are all so happy to have you back! i AM soo ohappy to have you back.

get you a scale that will register yoru weight....that way when you beat this thing, your testimony will have even more power bc you can say for certainty whre God brought you from.